kitlizette

Saturday here we come

2012-01-28T09:38:00.002Z

Me and Dave the dog ar off out to Richmond park to meet up with friends and kids and perhaps some deers. I hope Dave doesn't go all crazy on their ass.

Later folks, have a nice Saturday. Promise.

Kit x

anger face

2012-01-23T22:20:00.001Z

Anger face is on. Again. Why am I so angry all the time? I feel sorry for my D dude!! I think I know why I am slightly angry. I'm not in control, I don't have that job I really really want, I don't get enough work from my current employer, in fact I get fuck all right now, apart from requests to help out on the admin side of things. Fuck that shit. I don't know where we'll move, when the flat is sold. And I can't get my head around this rental business they run in this country. All the signs going up and down around the houses. WHO puts them up there? And WHY put up a sign telling people its 'Let & Managed by'? Who gives a shit? Its not available to rent, so who cares? Its not like you'd ever ask is it.

This England drives me up the wall sometimes, it really does.

Laters, got research and prep to do. Why I chose to do it now, fuck knows.

Ps. Pardon my anger language. I'm a bit like that right now. Sorry. Desole.

short fuse? Me?

2012-01-13T16:42:00.003Z

ME? NO I FUCKING DON'T! Haha. haha not really. Its driving me mad this. I am so easily irritated and cross with the world its making me mega tired.

I'm even tired of myself, don't really like hanging out with me.
Been to see therapist again, its nice talking to someone who can help filing things in the right pockets and folders. I was on my way back to being nice to me, to be my own best friend .. and then this, that I kind of expected, loosing my job, that got me right back in the corner where I beat myself up for all things bad, and blame everything that does't go my way, on me. As if there is always something I could have done to make sure things goes well. But that isn't always possible. Sometimes you have to just go with the flow. Get up, brush of the dust and keep going.

Feel better today, had a great practice last night and met up with dearest friend for brunch today. Looking for flats to rent for the D dude, dog and I, hoping our home is sold soon so I get some money in my bank account and can stop worry so much.

Right, that's today's news. Over and out.
Kit, London

Thursday

2012-01-05T12:52:00.002Z

Day.. two or three, of work limbo. Candy told me to not rush into anything, but have a good rest from work stress. Which I do try, I really do try. But it does make me feel a bit down from time to time.
I don't take it personal, I know is a financial decision. I am sad or down because of this constant ... strain, this constant never finding a place where I do REALLY really well and excel and shine and is really appreciated and really makes a difference. I want to put my mark on things. But none seem to listen, no company or agency seem to be in need for someone like me.

I'm feeling slightly lost I must admit.

well there you go!

2012-01-03T10:45:00.002Z

Went to work, turns out my gut feelings were right - I am out of a job. So I'm back at home now. In the comfort of my home that we are about to sell. Jesus, will I end up with absolutely NOTHING?

I will not do anything today, just sob a bit, feel sorry for myself and, maybe later, think about what I want to and can do.
Meeting Designer H later this week, she's going to help me with creating a portfolio, see what I can do with my ideas and that.

When will I get it right. I'm tired of searching and failing now.

Kit

back to work

2012-01-02T23:02:00.003Z

... not sure if I like it or not. Been a lovely xmas holidays and I don't know if I feel like going back to the cold dark office? But I'm sure I'll like it when I'm there. We just need to get GOING and get OUT there more. Hard with ney sayers but I'll get there I'm sure.

Got to pack my bags, prepare for tomorrow and go sleep now.

Nighty night.

Kit x

2012!

2012-01-01T20:13:00.002Z

here we come! 2011 was a mixed year, highlight of my life with marrying the D dude - still not used to have a HUSBAND! he wants to be with me Forever?! Amazing.
But then there was the awful agency times , with the alco boss and his side kick partner friend siding up on me, with constant review meetings, finger pointing and then days of ignoring me. He's been fired now, most of them have, or left of their own will. Think (and hope)he's going back down under, to rehab himself a bit. Can't keep on doing what he's doing for much longer, that's for sure.
In a way it was a blessing to break those bloody bones , be off work for about 8 weeks, and I got me a new little job in the mean time didn't I? Quite good work if I may say so myself.

Not sure what I'll do work wise 2012, but it must pay more, that's for sure. We'll see about that.

Writing this on the first day of the year, been at home chilling with Dave the dog and the D dude ALL DAY, only left the house to walk Dave. Been lovely! Perfect weather for it too, constant rain. ah, and I'm now being fed chocolate buttons. Bliss.

flat hunting

2011-12-30T10:22:00.002Z

My little one bed, first own home in London is up for SALE! I will be so sad to say goodbye to my little home that I LOVE. But its too small for the D dude and I, Plus we are not really allowed to have Dave the dog here. So, up for sale it goes, got our first offer on the go, so its kind of in progress. But not a done deal until the contracts have been signed, deal closed etc. I don't trust this to happen for a long time yet, I know these solicitors and housing associations..

Going through the first steps website now, got to find a resale flat, with a garden and not too big share. Uh. Scary this.

x

Things I have noticed about myself

2011-12-29T10:31:00.003Z

I have a strange fascination with angry people, or people with fear that they channel into anger och aggressive behaviour.
There's the current World cup, I was of course angry and upset, but tried to keep it to myself, was quite rational, and now, in hindsight, I have fully admitted that the reason to why I was not picked is simply because I'm not as good as I used to be before my injury. Simples. All I can do with that is to work hard to get better.

I'm more upset about the way it was handled, the no explanation, no support. But then, we are all new to this.. However, that's an old Kit thing, I always find an excuse for people that do me wrong. The fact is there, it was awful to be not be told, to be left on the side , a bit behind, and it doesn't help that I wasn't the only one.

We now have a possible European cup to look forward to, but some, the ones who aren't to NOT be in the drivers seat are not happy with this.
Its a shame, think we could all do really well, if we just relaxed and embraced what other can do a bit more.
How to get that message across is tricky question. Mission impossible? No, nothing is impossible.

Interesting..

2011-12-28T10:45:00.002Z

.. I have noticed that I'm never on any Team Sweden photos , website or mentions. A rather subtle way to get the message across , I'll live I'm sure. I've also decided that I will make it work in my favour. I will get back better and stronger than anyone can anticipate. I have just been out for my 2nd run since I broke my ankle, 1.3 km first time, 3.6 km this time. Dave runs after me and wonders when we are going to get going with the throwing of the sticks, his most fave game ever.

Got some skate time planned in for later this week too, might not be today as I'm off to Dean's salon to sort out the pink mess on my head, but will go tomorrow and Friday.

Watching How Clean is your house - one mean stinky pad on show for the whole nation, by some Glasgow banker. Why is he not embarrassed? My god there are some filthy people out there! Uh.

heelo

2011-12-14T21:14:00.002Z

HEeeello. Watching a documentary about kids who are in foster care, so sad. Sad for the parents, and sad for the children. So so sad.
Been to see Lotta tonight, so enjoy it. 1 hour of self indulgance, and freely talk about me me me. haha. I'm making progress, the evil me , always knocking nice me down, and tellling myself I'm a nolla is getting quieter.
Felt good , even under the circumstances that was, at the world cup. I didn't leave Toronto feeling useless and worthless as a skater. I left full of inspiration and fire to get even better, and knock a certain someone on the arse if we ever meet on the track.
And I will.

Kit x

Friday friday Friiiiiday

2011-11-18T15:20:00.002Z

Friday evening soon. I was an arse this morning, started screaming and shouting because I couldn't find my keys and travel card. I was screaming at MYSELF mind, because I do this ALL THE TIME. Leave it hidden for myself somewhere, but never on the same spot. nono. new places every time. This one was the left pocket of my red riding hood skirt. For NO REASON at all. that's where my travel card was. My keys were on the stool, in the hall way -RIGHT IN FRONT of my eyes.

What a wally.

Better be a bit nicer wife tonight. Bit happy and cheerful.

Kit

ps. not long till the world cup now! Oh lala. We are in Group A, with Brazil, Canada and France. Bring it.

viewing that never was.

2011-11-12T10:28:00.002Z

Been cleaning the flat ALL morning, got a bit angry with the D dude , on my own, as I was scrubbing the kitchen stove. That was NOT the deal and he knows it.

Anyway, its clean now, but did the viewer show? NO. Did she call to cancel? NO. Fucking' rude, isn't it? Its the second or third no show! What is WRONG with people.

went out for a quick walk with Dave the dog, got a coffee and will watch some Gotham v Denver bouts now, then heading off to Hyde Park to meet P&E , they don't do no no shows.

Slowly but surely building up my confidence, every time the little voice tells me I am no good I have words. Slowly but surely i will become my best supporter. To right.

Kit x

up in the air!

2011-11-06T20:20:00.001Z

On my way back from a weekend of awesomeness with team Sweden, Norwegian air has wi-find onboard so writing this when I really am up in the air. Someone just had an attack so a shout out for a doc was done, this young guy came up, impressive!! I might want to become a doctor, or a nurse? Don't know, maybe im just a bit inspired by the resent event?
The weekend was awesome, loved every minute of it!! Toronto is soon! I fly out 30th nov, 24 days from today! Fuckinghellllll!!!! Haha, worldcup hey? Who would have thought. Maybe im not so bad after all.

Team Sweden boot camp coming up!

2011-10-31T12:46:00.002Z

This weekend coming! exciting! A bit daunting, last time was when I went over for the try outs and ended up in Danderyds fina sjukhus (hospital) for 4 days. Better be careful this time! AND take a good look at the floor, see what wheels I should use , and be a bit clevereerrerrer about things. (note to self)

Then, in just a few more days (well, 3 weeks or so) we're OFF to TORONTO for the World cup!

If you want to sponsor us, get get some killer clothing at the same time, check out our webshop for some nice Team Sweden Merch!

Laters skaters,
Kit x

Bout day!

2011-10-16T23:19:00.002Z

I was in the penalty box, a lot. As the penalty timer! hahahahaa!!
or, not so hahaha, really, as I'd rather have been out skating with my London Rockin' Rollers but... fuckin' foot will not allow it, not just yet.

Got my skates back , with NEW plates thanks to Skate Attack, a lot lighter and, I'm sure, a hellofalot faster! Tested the floor , skated for about 20 minutes or so, was lovely...

Our speed coach has worked out a plan of action for me, as of tomorrow Im following this program, with set tasks for my walk/cycle to and from work. This first week is a test week only, so I'm NOT to over do it, NOTE TO SELF: don't.

I'll keep you posted.
Kit x

my way to work

2011-10-13T17:03:00.001Z

final answer

2011-10-06T21:48:00.001Z

Do you want to stop smoking?

YES.

RIP Mr.J

2011-10-06T12:31:00.000Z

"Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything - all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart."
– Steve Jobs, 2005

kitlizettos kyriakikos corfurios

2011-09-20T16:39:00.003Z

Corfu calling! Malakas or whatever they say, kalimera I think it is. Mrs me and me' HUSBAND are in Corfu, chilling big style for two whole weeks, its amazing.
managed to lose my bikini bottoms day one , in the middle of the restaurant, and Mr D walked on a wasp and fell over by the pool later on the same day, so we've made sure people know we are HERE. How to make an entrance is an artform, we have it nailed I'd like to think.

Been thundering and lighting here today all day, and its acutally quite nice. The hotel is a spa hotel so in true Swedish style I've had a sauna marathon , competed with myself and won. Will no go to our all inclusive dinner with my Ddude aka my husband and then, possibly take part in the karaoke with all ze Germans. He does not know this, is sitting next to me so better finish this.

Kit x x x

one more sleep!

2011-09-09T16:29:00.002Z

One more day with butterflies and nervous giggle.
Still at work, cab will pick me up at 17:45. In 15 minutes. Then I shall be off, off and away for wine with me' bitches, staying in lush hotel with my dearest candy kompis, and then off to hair, we'll do makeup ourselves, and wedding ceremony and then party with ALL our friends and family. Can't wait!

hope it wont be chucking it down as they say.

Kit x x x

Team Sweden!

2011-09-07T16:47:00.003Z

I Made the team! Did you know? Yep yep, I fucking made it.

NOW, its just a case of getting the hobo foot downa few sizes so it can squeeze into the boot again, skate like there is no tomorrow, suck our coaches dry and bond bond bond with the rest of the team. Going to Finland 2nd w/e of October for a friendly, really hope I can skate then.

We are trying to get financial back up from Sportkronan, and need your votes! Klick here and then click on 'tipsa juryn' (blue button on the left hand side)

Every day if you can be bothered?

Kit x

tick tock

2011-09-06T07:04:00.002Z

Been ticking things off as ape go along this week, thought the Ddude was more stressed and behind than what I am, but then suddenly realised I don't have a wedding bouquet. Oups. Is it necassary? I an not used to walk around holding a bunch of flowers in my hand ape part of ones outfit. Will make something.

amazing balls

2011-09-02T22:08:00.002Z

Am stuck in front of the TV, the D dude is out with friends, a lot more out than what I thought it seems, I thought we were going to browse for holidays, no, I mean HONEY MOON holidays, and do some bits and bobs to prepare for the wedding NEXT Saturday. But no. This was not to be.

Guess what's on? Bridget Jones. Bridget fucking Jones.

My dear big bird reminded me of our MSN chats, seems she has saved them, and apparently we were hilarious. AND during one of these conversations I compared myself to said Bridget Fucking Jones.

I haven't felt like Bridget Jones tonight, I've been a little bit annoyed, but also a big bit .. contempt in the knowing that I , in fact, is going to marry the D dude in less than ... 8 days.

Amazing balls.

Kit x

ps. Oh he just proposed! Seems we are a bit similar anyway. Oh dear.

Friday Friday...

2011-09-02T09:51:00.001Z

Bout day tomorrow, I will be bench managing for the A and B team, so busy times! Looking forward! Must not forget ankle strap, bouncing around for 2 hours is not the easiest.
Toxico is going to London Edge Sun - Tuesday so no rest for the wicked! No no, 09:30 Sunday morning I shall be at London Olympia, all dressed in Toxico clothing and with a big smile on me' face. Really looking forward!

the Nordic teams have a mini tournament this weekend, gutted I can't be at two places t the same time! Grr.. but luckily one Team Sweden skater is coming over to London Edge beg next week so we'll have our own little Team Swe meeting here. Ex pats.

oh, and then its nearly 10th Sept and me and the D dude will get married. Can't wait.

Kit x

not long now

2011-08-26T19:54:00.002Z

its been.. hard work , this wedding planning. Not because it's been hard to agree on what to do, but the venue people have been utter sheit, and we are quite poor so we kind of haven't got any money left over for a ring for the D dude, nor a honey moon.

If I'd been a girl who'd planned her wedding since she was ten I'd be bridezilla now, and probably on the verge of a nervous breakdown.

However, I am not that so I'm kind of just getting along.

I have started smoking again though, so somethings must get to me...

Hm.

Kit x

a real crap bag

2011-08-15T22:12:00.002Z

That's what the woman who runs the venue for our wedding is. She has lovely staff, but SHE is just full of shit. Empty air and I'd never trust anything she says until I have seen it and FELT it myself. Nothing she has said she'd do ,she has done. NOthing. NOt even a receipt.

What a FUCKING useless cunt she is.

And she has the nerve to tell me to calm down. FUCK OFF with you calm downs I say.
FUCK RIGHT OFF.

GUess I am turning into a bit of a hysterical bride to be after all. Well, she has been asking for it.

Kit . On a mission.

crap bag

2011-08-13T10:09:00.002Z

not for any other reason than that I heard it on TV just now and it made me laugh. Crap bag!hahaha what a fab word that is.

Having a foot bath, apparently its good to dip swollen foot in hot then cold then hot then cold water. So that's what I'm doing this morning.
Just had a girl coming over for a viewing of the flat. Hope she likes it.. there's been a few viewings but no offers yet... uh. what if none wants to buy it? WHY doesn't anyone want my flat? Its a LOVELY flat. I offended now.

laters, footbath to be had, then hitting town with my main dog Dave.

Kit x

First day with 1 crutch

2011-07-15T08:29:00.003Z

And what do I do? Forget the crutch when we went out with Dave for his morning walk. Clever!

Never mind, going to Edmonton soon, for a meeting with Toxico then to Camden for optician and hang with Bloody and Whips.

Here's a link to the album about my left foot if you fancy a watch.

Its nice ja?

Kit

Free!

2011-07-14T17:35:00.002Z

Oh ,and perhaps I have some MORE exciting news soon!
The biggest incentive for me, as a skater, right now - Have a guess.

Kit x x x

one more sleep

2011-07-13T12:33:00.003Z

Then its good bye to the cast du merde, and not a tear will fall. Totally expect my left leg to emerge pale, somewhat thinnner and hairy, and probably a bit flakey too. a bit like it should belong to a eastern European crack addict. And still I can't wait.
Wonder if I can go for a leg wax straight after? Or will that rip my leg to pieces? Who would know? The doctor? He was a right Seriousness, so doubt that.

Bought a pair of shoes yesterday, sorry I mean WEDDING Shoes, got them 2nd hand on eBay

(Photo from this fashion blogger)

Nice huh? hope they get here soon.

Other than that, not much going on really.
WEll, when I say that, I'm selling my flat. Had enough of this Housing Association and the ASBO neighbours across the court yard. Asbo himself started beating up his girlfriend Saturday night. Nice. Called the police , thank god someone else had called already so they were on their way.
The next day another fuckwit on the 3rd floor thought it was a good idea to get rid of a few glass bottles by chucking them out of the window. Just like that?

Its like living in the middle ages , but behind a screen of modern buildings and clothes.
We are going to Bethnal Green to view a flat with a GARDEN tonight. Probably not possible for us to apply to buy it as we need to have a confirmed buyer for our current flat first but you can still try can't you.
Cast is off tomorrow AM as said. Event of the week for sure.
I am going to meet my future boss on Friday, hopefully get contracts and paperwork sorted then.

That's about it for now.
Laters Kit x

arrrgh!

2011-07-10T18:46:00.002Z

Less than one week left with this cast, and the D dude has got his gout back! That means none can walk Dave the dog properly, and I HATE it. It makes me feel so guilty , and bad. Bad dag dog owner.

its not good for us, this. We kind of argue a lot about it and I hate us.

Please make us stop...

Kit x

less than 1 week!

2011-07-08T11:56:00.003Z

Then this cast du merde is OFF! It will be a weak, pale hairy leg seeing the light for the first time in seven weeks - I better book myself in for a legwax Thurs PM!

Can't believe how long time ago this feels: (and was)

bleurgh

2011-07-06T16:17:00.002Z

Big day of cleaning flat for the sales team to view it Friday.
Meeting with photographer for the Rockin' Rollers tomorrow PM
Will attempt to use that goddamn carpet cleaning machine that's been here for months, the D dude parents never picks it up, even though we've said we don't know how to use it. Better just try hey.
Got call from mortgage broker, as salary has gone down slightly, it seems harder to get a mortgage as the one I have now. Bugger. But the D dude can join me.
There is nothing wrong with asking for help, I must remember.
Its not all up to me.

Kit x

12 days left

2011-07-02T08:15:00.003Z

I have gone into countdown mode. Only 12 days left. That's NOTHING! Its less than 2 weeks for example.

Me and the D dude are going to the Hop Farm festival later on this afternoon.
Check out the line up!
Prince! Morrissey! Imelda May! the Pierces! Manu Chao! Guillemots! Young Rebel set!
Not bad for a little festival in Kent.

So looking forward to our little road trip, camping and chillaxing with my main man D.

Kit x

Bionic Kit

2011-07-01T18:20:00.006Z

My almighty London Rockin' Rollers hosts their first summer bout for the season tomorrow 2nd July.
This season's theme is the seven sins, but we call it seven deadly bouts, we're at 'sloth' now.
Our B(adasses)Team will play Bedfordshire Roller girls and then its the 3rd intraleague bout for the season, and its my homies The Goldie Lookin' ChainGang vs The Neanderdolls. Exciting!
Gutted I can't play, but intra league is also a bit... strange. Hitting your own girls? Hmm...Its weird. I mean, I can do it, trust me, NO problems there, I just don't like the odd divide it creates. There are always a few skaters that take it just a liiittle bit too far if you know what I mean? (If you don't you might be one of them! :D )

Its nothing I have to worry about as I'm not skating in this one - and I wont be skating for the next few months.
I'll probably miss the games against Stuttgart, LRG, the boot camp next week, the guest coach in August.. Aiming to be back on wheels in .. End October / beginning November. I will have to try out for the B team first I guess, then onto the A team and see where I'll end up. Might as well be realistic.

HOWEVER, I am determinded to be back with a stronger physique than what I had before. I'm doing my exercises every day, will up the game as I get better.

I better up my game, just been tweeting with one of my followers, who is a hardcore London Rockin' Roller fan, promising to get back as an ultra-bionic non-stoppable solar powered never-ending power jamming machine. No preasure then. :D

If I have to rebuild myself I might as well aim to become a better version of self was my thinking.

What do you think? Doable?

Kit x

ONE month

2011-06-29T12:21:00.003Z

I've been in this cast for a month now. got TWO weeks left, and a bit. 14th July is when the cast will be cut up open and my by then I'm sure pale and weak left leg will be seeing the light.
Quite hairy too I'm sure. Better remember to book in a leg wax that PM...

I have very hairy knees I've noticed, more on the ill leg. Isn't that strange?

Strange what your body does. Like when it happened, I honestly didn't' think it was broken, and stayed for the remaining hour to watch the other girls scimmage and try to help out bench coaching. Didn't hurt that much, when I moved I did think, oh, it's not attached to my leg anymore. But I kind of stopped thinking about it because I didn't wanted to be injured and the drama queen.
All I thought was, hope I can skate in the mixed scrimmage tomorrow, I'm sure I can.

When finally rolling over on one skate to my bag, to start packing up my things, another girl in the pack got hurt, and really bad too; Her knee got dislocated and it was all quite dramatic. we called for an ambulance , and I thought I'd go with her, as he companion, to the hospital, and then they could check my ankle too.
I sat on the floor by the door when they walked her out (on a stretch), , asked them if I could come along, but was declined.

THEN it started to hurt a little bit.

Got a lift to the A&E, waited for hours and when the doc finally came up to me, pressed on a few points on my foot and established 'Two fractures', that's when I started crying.

I'm gutted still. gutted that I might not be in Team Sweden 2011, gutted that I can't walk Dave the dog, gutted that I can't go out there and get a job as quickly as I want to. Gutted I can't slwo ride on my lovely summer cruiser bike.

But.. being gutted for too long will not help. I am trying to work on my upper body, do my leg exercises, plan for the wedding, work on my online profile, update CV's, network and do all sorts of research.

I will be stronger, have toned arms and know a lot more about things by end July, that's for sure.

Now go away, I am busy researching.

Kit x

mum

2011-06-22T15:17:00.001Z

is here and its LOVELY to be looked after a bit. I feel my energy levels rising.

Now I just need to find a job, get off the crutches and arrange that wedding of mine , oh and find and book a honey moon.

Shit, forgot about that. Better discuss.

x

status

2011-06-15T13:04:00.002Z

got my exit interview with work today, looking forward. No, really I am! It will not be the nicest of meetings, but it has to be done and that's the end of that.

Got a few things lined up but nothing solid, need to get this first appointment over and done with before I can move on.

Will start working on more stretches and upper body exercise so I don't end up weak and stiff as an old vegetable.

Just thought I'd you know.

Here are some photos about the broken bones. Enjoy!

Kit

berg och dalbanan - as in banana

2011-06-09T11:21:00.002Z

Hello there.
right, its a bit up and down here. bit up'n daaan. I'm out of work, met with ex boss for casual lunch yesterday - seems he thinks my last day will be end May, when he first dropped the bomb. I don't think so, I have not yet had anything in writing, no formal meetings, no proper explanation other than there is not enough money coming in from the accounts you run. Well, I beg to differ but that's just me.

Or, hang on.' Just me '? That's not the approach to take here. I need to man up and fight for my rights. Which I will do, of course, I'm a fighter and all that. Its just that.. its a bit much all this losing job, breaking foot, not making the try outs and therefore not the team, letters from Housing association about not allowing us to keep Dave the dog.. all in one week. Come on, that's a bit much isn't it? i'm not like fragile and overreacting here , am I? Even if I was, so what? Its my life and I can react how I want to.

I am very off / on here, one minute I am fine, the other I feel like absolute shit. I hate not being able to walk, run, skate, cycle around. I hate not being able to hang in the park with Dave - just to get there takes 1/2 hour and my palms hurt so much I can't do it today!

Just sat down in the sofa and Dave came up to lie down next to me, put his little head in my lap and is now fast asleep. And all of a sudden things feel fine.

Kit x

things on my mind

2011-06-03T19:14:00.002Z

its Friday evening. I lost my job the other week. I am back home finally, from a lot longer long weekend than planned. I can barely go out with Dave the dog, but have managed to get him down to the small hidden garden behind our house. Not ideal for a puppy with lots of run in the legs but better than staying indoors.

I have been at home on my own for two days. My boyfriend is in the pub with a mate. after work drink. Really?

broken bones

2011-05-29T16:09:00.002Z

not broken KIT. went to Stockholm for the Team Sweden tryouts, skated happily for two hours then CRACK the bones said and I eneded up in Danderyds hospital with a cast all the way up my legs, and two broken bones , on one each side of the foot. Crazy times.

Gutted, and hoping so much I managed to make an impression on the Team Sweden coaches and still has a chance to make the team.

I share a room with Hildegard, the scream. The looks like the painting, honestly. And screams too. Marvellous.

:D

illing

2011-05-24T10:05:00.002Z

at home, watching TV, cuddling Dave the dog and eating chocolate.

Will, have to, go skating tonight, but feel slightly feverish. There's the Tryouts this coming weekend, and I have to get some skate time this week, missed both weekdays last week.

We have got our invites, so better get going with them now. Exciting and scary and soon and looking forward! Marriage hey? Who would have thought.

x

Skit chef

2011-05-18T12:46:00.003Z

jag skriver det här på svenska, vill inte att någon från jobbet hittar min blogg, ser vad jag skriver och rapporterar back to base. Jag har nog med problem.

Jag har börjat söka nytt jobb. Japp, hon som sökte nytt så att hon kräktes , och till slut fick hon napp, och började jobba och insåg sakta men oh så säkert att här var det nog lite knas, här var inte alla hönsen hemma kan man säga.
En chef säger så, sen tycker en annan tvärtemot och en tredje surar och hänger läpp.

En annan dricker för mycket, varje dag nästan, och somnar på soffan på kontoret titt som tätt. Det är inget kul att träffa nyvaken chef med fylle ögon och orakad haka när man kommer till jobbet klockan nio en tisdag.

Jag tycker det ska vara trevligt på jobbet, alla ska gilla riktningen vi tar, gilla varandra, alla ska vara med, tillsammans. Som ett team.

Kit

Here we go again...

2011-05-16T15:25:00.002Z

I have posted rants about my work here before, and I’m sure I will do it again. But this time it’s not about the job – I think it’s me. I am seriously considering a complete work change. I am not the right person to do this shit. Or I just don’t think exactly like my boss, and therefore he is not ever happy with what I do. Never. I have not had one nice thing said to me since I started here in August last year.

I think he wants me out. And I am not particularly keen on staying with that hanging over me.

Better hurry up, you don't have the same security as in Sweden here, if you are out, you leave immediately!

... I wonder what are all those empty boxes doing next to my desk..?

lola pistola

2011-04-28T15:35:00.002Z

I want to be sophisticated suave lady with long fingres, you hear me fingres, not fingers and immaculate hair and ever so husky voice.

its not hard not smoking but I do miss thinking I look like a French beauty. Probably never ever did but the thought was nice.

Now I comfort myself I look like a healthy chubby person with alright skin. Great.

Kit x

sad face

2011-04-27T22:48:00.002Z

Again. I need to go talk to someone. But how? When? Who?

I don't have time to be sad. I 've got all this nice stuff happening around me. its time to allow myself to step into it and embrace, enjoy and take part now.

confession time

2011-04-23T16:14:00.002Z

I have, at the age of 37 years, and with a history of living in my own, rented and or/owned flat since the mere age of 17, washed the windows for the first time.

Now that's quite some time. And some DIRRRRTTY windows like Tina sang. Oh, no she sang steamy right? Whatever.

Kit x

sunniest day ever

2011-04-23T09:06:00.002Z

and I'm stuck indoors, with Dave the dog. I feel so sorry for him, can't wait until he's had that second jab and can be let outdoors! BRING on next weekend.

I just want to take him out for a run in the grass!

Its all about Dave

2011-04-18T10:38:00.000Z

still anger fuck

2011-04-14T13:38:00.001Z

but for a whole different load of reasons. And i can't list why, I don't KNOW why? I should be happiest girl ever. but I am not. It might be me.

Anyway, I shall not dwell on it. All I'm saying is that this new look and feel of the kitty blog, fucking suits me on the inside. Angerfuck is my middle name.

ANGERFUCK!

2011-04-02T08:05:00.001Z

I was going to post on Facefuck book but thought again, and am using this to vent. WHy is it that EVERYTIME it enter a kitchen there's fucking disaster? Just wanted to rinse my herbalife shake mixer bottle and everything just gets splattered with water!? WHAT THE FUCKIN' FUCK.

I hate mess, but when in certain areas I am the sole reason to the mess. I hate it. And the D dude is not helping by never actually cleaning up HIS area of the flat PROPERLY.

Argh, I so angry, need to get out and lap up some sunshine, thank god that's possible. Going for a long bike ride , to Chelsea wharf to meet up with Per and Sweet E and baby I.

Laters. Fuckin' fuck. Still a little bit angry.
kit

check out London Swedes!

2011-03-31T10:58:00.001Z

Its the best time ever to come over! Oh got so nostalgic when reading this, its MY town you are reading about in dear old Aftonbladet!

I love their site. Its so old and never changing and it should be just like that, forever.

London love from Kit x

Frankly

2011-03-23T14:56:00.003Z

Do I think Frank Andersson looks like Mickey Rourke in the Wrestler because he's just that, an old wrestler, or are they actually lookalikes?

Kit

well hello

2011-03-12T10:12:00.003Z

Its Saturday, feels like its the first Saturday in 2011 when I don't have to rush off somewhere. Can just chillax... ah.. i'm being naughty and have had a fag.. indoors. Shh.. don't tell the D dude. We have a strict rule of no smoking in doors. And here I am.. Bad.

I have met with a physio therapist , to stop this smoking malarky, its just stupid. I don't smoke much these days, but.. at weekends, well, when I know I am going out to indulge in fine wine, that means smoking as well, in my silly head.
Got the appointment booked, Saturday 19th March. That's the day when I will stop completely. LOOKING FORWARD! In a way I was hoping my will power would be enough, but I have had to give in and admit that my will power is in fact, not sufficient to let go 100%. Nothing wrong with that in my book, its the result that counts.

Meeting Candy and Pepe for lunch today, taking them to The Candid Cafe in Angel, next to Slimelight! will be nice.

Lots of love
Kit x

sad face

2011-03-07T03:43:00.001Z

I am disappointed and there's none I can talk to. So have to vent here. Not much I can say apart from being sad and disappointed with someone you love sucks. I am awake. He's fast asleep.

boring end of a Sunday night.

snotty kitty

2011-02-23T22:33:00.001Z

Again? Why?
I shall tell you why. Because I am sat right underneath an air con unit. That's why.

Annoying.

I'm also a little bit stressed as we have not yet sent out an save the date email to all people coming to the wedding, the loaf at Slimelight hasn't confirmed anything yet which means we don't know the exact number of guests we can afford to invite.

You go figure if she'd get 2 or 5 stars right now.

Fist in the face that's what. Hahah. trying to be all 'ard me.

Kit the boxer.

positiviteeeet

2011-02-16T21:23:00.002Z

ibland blir jag sa trott pa tjejer att jag bara maste skriva av mig och da ar svenska ratt sa bra for INGEN i mitt alskade lag vet jag jag babblar om.
det ar sa trist nar de som GOR MINST for laget, tar sig friheten att tycka till om oss som spenderar tid, massor med tid, pa att fixa och ordna for laget.

Jag vill inte fa kommentarer om min asikt, jag vill hora andra forslag och tankar pa det vi diskuterar. tvartom min asikt - helt ok, men skit i att papeka hur mitt forslag har framforts, eller vad som ar fel med det. Konstruktivitet kallas det tror jag.

irriterande.

Kit

Come dine with me klockan halv åtta

2011-02-15T10:13:00.002Z

Checking out the Swedish Roller derby queen , Swede Hurt, she's on a Swedish TV show called Halv åtta hos mig, which is the same as Come dine with me here in the UK. And it AMAZING to see how much nicer, well presented, cleaner, and prettier everything is in Swedish! I'm so sorry fellow English folks but everything here is just a liiiittle bit ugly. Your homes, you, your plates, your pets, the shops.. the houses. Everything.

its the inside that counts though, so don't feel sad just because you aren't the prettiest things.

Kit

she's moving!

2011-02-09T20:05:00.001Z

My big bird is moving , leaving LondonTown , going back to the motherland! Oh noooo!
Going out for a good old' wine sesh tonight. Or perhaps just a quiet one, where we sit at a table for two, sip our wine , slowly and stare into each others eyes.

Nah. we're going Garlic, wine and mess. I think.

Who knows. You can't tell with them two. the Bird and Kit does random things. At random places, in round about ways.

Now I must go. in a round about way.

Its a bit sad still.

Kit x

off and on

2011-01-29T11:14:00.003Z

that's how I am today. One minute completely content and happy. Next, down feeling sorry forself, for injured knee, for fat ass, for drag at work and just generally emotionally sadly sad.

Then up again to contentness again.

Maybe I am bipolar like Kerry Katona?

Oh please, don't let me be like Kerry Katona.

Kit x

Oh Laura

2011-01-24T21:55:00.002Z

Watching a documentary about Laura Hall

I hope she is better now. she did relapse but has gone back to rehab.

Kit x

tits

2011-01-23T14:45:00.002Z

Okej, sa nu sitter jag lite i skiten igen. Kanns det som. Jag har fatt forlangd provotid pa jobbet. Det ar inget bra tecken. Vad hande med objectives och mal att jobba mot? Sa jag vet vad jag ska fokusera pa? Hello? Var ar mina chefer som jag tyckte var toppen nar jag gick pa intervjuverna? De verkade bra, reko? Nu ar alla som hajar, precis sa kanns det, som jag simmar sjalv bland hajar som inte vill att jag ska hinna simma in till land alive.

The D dude says to calm down, not get wound up or worry too much. Hm. inte sa latt nar man liksom ar beroende av ett jobb for att kunna betala for sig.

Skit ocksa.

The C word

2011-01-19T18:41:00.001Z

How do you convince someone your confidence is just fine, and at the same time, and in the nicest way possible, get the message across that the fact that your confidence is questioned makes you feel a liiiittle bit self conscious?

Advice would be much appreciated.
(No cuntish ones)

Kit x

Help

2011-01-14T17:53:00.002Z

I'm so nervous it kills me but I have to calm down, not be a spazz and take the train, as planned, up to Telford where the London Rockin' Rollers shall command and conquer for a few days. Oh yes. I have been a really good kit too, not a cigarette at all since NYE. Didn't plan it, had already cut down so so much, only when drinking , but noticed that when under a tiny bit of pressure, il me faut une cloppe. .and that's not good so better not to smoke at all. Just like that. Wish I can stick to it. Watch this espace.

been on the phone to HUGELY annoying client. young lady, really nice, but does not GET it and confuses everything, nothing can be a simple task and now has this project log file we are to fill in. Or, I do it for her. Why? Because she instructed me to and I'm not going to waste my breath to explain that that would, in fact, be her job.
(Same client who has repetitively asked me to send a text when I have sent an email to her. As a little notification service) Really? I hear you say. Yes, really.

If I do it? Am I fuck.

:D

Better get going, got to go to Euston, got a train to catch, bouts to play, victories to win.

Laters skaters
Kit x

its' NYE today. I'm at work.

2010-12-31T10:56:00.003Z

Don't have that much to do, or I tell a lie. I do have stuff to do but its lots of admin and project documentation stuff. The most BO-RING stuff ever.

Not sure what we are doing tonight. Which feels rather fabulous and odd at the same time. Might go to a pub on Holloway Road. Then there's Biddle Brothers around the corner. We'll have fun no matter what. Got champagne in the fridge. Actually I lie its not in the fridge but it sounded better that way.

The D Dude is as always feeling awful - But that'll pass. He REALLY need to look after himself. I am quietly worried, but try to ... inspire him. How to do this is hard. I'm talking about someone who doesn't stick to anything, haven't really done any physical activity and truly enjoyed it apart from playing pool. That doesn't count.

Anyway, I will get him moving. Watch out 2011, The D dude will go all physical on ya.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

kit x x x

Knuckle duster – tic

2010-12-29T14:03:00.001Z

The lovely d dude got me a knuckle duster ring for xmas! He’s spoiling me and I love it!
It didn’t quite fit, I thought, so went back to the shop yesterday to try a bigger size. That fell off my little odd shaped boy hands. The shop attendant then showed me, patiently, how to put it on properly.

Took the D dude to the pub after that, to calm him down a little.

Popped our heads in to Fur coat no Knickers on the way to the pub, lovely shop – hope they can help me find a nice dress for the wedding.

OMG WEDDING!

In nine months I’ll be someone’s wife. And not just anyone, but the D dudes wife! Crazy.

Really.

2010-12-26T11:28:00.003Z

Noticed that old roller derby dame, one of the elderly, who left league under odd circumstances (well, she didn't like it when changes had to be done, and cried like a baby when being coached by American guest coach...), has taken me OFF her Facebook page. We are no longer Facebook friends? Oh my.

Don't care, but am still keen to investigate, poke around - find out why?
I'm not the reason she didn't get new tactics. I'm not the one who's been talking about her behind her back. I'm not the one who's been talking about her at all. The opposite rather. But she is too ignorant to want to know. Will not waste my time explaining.

FFS.

Kit's six pack

2010-12-20T22:56:00.003Z

Did 40 sit ups and the plank for 2 minutes at the gym today.
Then sauna , a pitch black sauna but I didn't care. was quite nice, got it to myself.

Watching Chattyman (Alan Carr), that Cheryl Cole seems extremely DULL. And her dresses are just .. turkiskt mode. You know those shops with all the wrong things? No MASSIVE faux pas, just that little thing OTT or missing on absolutely everything. That's where she get her clothes from. Although she pays a lot more now days. Shame isn't it. You can't buy taste can you. Not a voice either, she started singing now, must change channel.

Laters, Kit x

Oh England

2010-12-16T15:07:00.003Z

what's going on now then? Julian & The Wikileak ... you getting your hands dirty getting involved in wikileaks stuff?

What actually happened in Sweden would be quite interesting. Or would it? Its probably an angry orange bird from Solna who thought she would make some money.

Friends

2010-12-15T20:45:00.003Z

Friend offered some spare time after their meet up with other friend first. Possibly. Said no thanks. Rather be first on the agenda, that's not being hard to please surely?

Sometimes I think I'm too laissez faire and flexi flexi, so when it comes to making plans with me, its not happening, as there seem to be no need?

Well. Its xmas time and things get busy, so Kit has no time to be on call because other things must get done.

Now, back to translations and ad copy. The Late shift has begun.

Kit x

Event of the year 2011:

2010-12-13T11:24:00.000Z

We have a date! A date for MARRIAGE!? Oh – my – God.

I have never ever, honestly, thought that I’d be saying those words.
Its very flattering , this proposing thing, and the wedding is kind of making it real. He really does want to spend his whole LIFE with me?
That’s great because I want to be with him all the time too.

Am contacting a shop called Fur coat no knickers for the wedding dress. Purely because of the name.

Just so you know.
Laters,
Kit x

ps

2010-12-07T22:45:00.001Z

going to pilates tomorrow. Project abs still WIP.

Just realised pre spelling tool doesn't know the word Pilates? How very old school.

right

2010-12-07T22:36:00.002Z

fighting the cold, went home, had a bath, in bed already. The D dude is out - even if skint. Now I don't get that. If you have no money, you have no money. Pisses me off in a way. Started war with Facebook status saying when you have no money you have no money. Oh daring hey. HAHAHA. Not war with the D dude. War with the movement as a whole. Lots of people I know does it. No money , but still spending? Not sure how but it is what economists call 'false economy'. Oh look at me smarty pants.

I'm missing practise Thurs too , agency xmas party. An all day'er. Might have big all agency meeting Friday AM though, bummer. Can you do them drunk?

Anyway, today is going to bed early day. Brace face on, lights off.

Good night mes amis.

Kit x

must .

2010-11-18T18:57:00.001Z

. get. abs.

so going to gym now. I am action man.

x x x

Back home

2010-11-13T17:54:00.001Z

Cleaning, checking up derby friends all over the world and just had a little cry when the Sin City Rollergirls remembered me and posted niceness on their wall. It is so NICE to be part of Roller derby , to know that all over the world, you can meet fellow skaters who will welcome you with open arms and make you feel so welcome.

Just had to say.

Saturday

2010-11-13T10:18:00.002Z

finally. Peace and quiet. Going out on my lovely bike soon, gonna check for some furniture, (the chest of drawers in the bedroom has collapsed, literally) some small bits, pick up contact lenses in Camden, swap a T-shirt for the D dude, maybe go to the gym for a sauna and chill, maybe meet with Pepe for a coffee.

There's a lot of maybes there, that's how I roll today. Its all a big maybe.

Kit x

bah

2010-11-07T23:43:00.001Z

har sitter jag och kollar pa the flat track championships, mitt i natten, och the D dude ar ute och lajjar med kompisar och mobilen ar dod och det kanns lite lite trist. Engelsman dricker sa mycket. Onyttigt mycket och jag tycker det ar lite jobbigt. Men det kan man inte saga for da ar man trakig.

Hm. hellre trakig and med rutten lever sager jag.

Sa det sa.

Kit

Happy happy

2010-11-04T20:07:00.001Z

that's me. at work. its amazing. Hard work, Kit runs a lot of accounts but it so much fun. Challenging, and fun fun fun.

Been busy bee, doing those translastion for the old agency at night time. Now I have to invoice. 3.5 days of work, almost. Or 3? I don't know. I haven't got a clue.

Will pay for new bed frame, well half of it, the other half is being paid by my other half. OMG I am getting married next year. I need some air, better go.

Laters.
Kit x

overdue update

2010-10-31T23:39:00.003Z

Halloween, been to boyfriends - or I mean FIANCE's parents for bday dinner and pumpkin competition. Never done that pumpkin thing before, was quite fun. Might do it again, sometime, might not be at Halloween , just to confuse people a little.

Me and the D dude went to see a possible place for le marriage earlier today. Exciting! I'm still amazed he seems to want to get married with me. I love that feeling.

Better go to bed, body slightly battered after a bout yesterday, beat the Windsor RollerGirls with more than the double. Ha. Must get faster and better. Knows what I need to do, just got to DO IT.

Goodnight , Kit x

ps

2010-10-16T10:26:00.001Z

the tears of joy was real, earlier this week I was just overjoyed with how much fun I am having at work. That's what it was about. Just thought I'd clarify. Laters, Kit x

tears of joy

2010-10-16T10:14:00.002Z

well, not right this minute - I'm stuck at home, on a sunny Saturday, writing keywords for a clothes range. That means repeteadly changing the order of words like dress, pleat, jersey, strapless, and adding in the brand name and other seasonal references. 3700 of them too. No, sorry - 3709 to be precise.

I have a infected cut on my foot, got this hole from trying too hard and often to break in my skates so I haven't been able to put them back on for over 1 week now. My team is on its way to Stuttgart for a VERY exciting bout no doubt. And me and the D dude had a little fall out this morning. GREAT. He's just a little bit angry on Saturday mornings because I'm not working and he is and was just really mean and it was almost like he WANTED us to fall out. Man problems. Sorted it out before he left. I was in a great mood when I woke up, and don't want to be angry so I'm just not going to think about it any more.

On the plus side, I'm meeting up with Big bird tonight and I'm so looking forward to it. I will have to make sure I eat before hand, make sure I'm ready for lots of wine, put on something nice, NOT comb my hair because it looked really funny when I woke up and hit town. Bed hair is the new thing.

double rainbows

2010-09-08T18:01:00.002Z

Over Clerkenwell this eve. I missed them though. bugger.

Got lots more projects on the go now, things are picking up, Kit is getting busy, and start to feel a little bit.. useful again. Hate being new girl and billy no jobs.

Hopefully the upcoming brief holiday for OVER two weeks wont affect what clients and colleagues think of me.. uhh.. well. It was booked in AGES ago.
Two weeks + on the road with the D dude, First few days we will be driven around by myself, Kit. Haven't driven a car for a couple of years but lets not tell the D dude about that one shall we?

Anyway, we are going LA - up the highway 101 to San Fran - Vegas - LA.

Oh look at me. Vegas San Fran LA ing a bit blase like. What a lie, I'm all like: LA BABY!! woohoooo!!

Anyway, better go. Got meeting with the big bird ce soir.

Agenda: Life: Discuss.

Love it
Kit x

bonjour

2010-09-04T08:16:00.002Z

Saturday, my first Saturday as an engaged lady. Was about to write of leasure but that will never ever be the case!

Getting on the hoj soon, cycling over to Kensal Green for brunch lunch with Candy and Kapris! Niceness. The only worry is that she might scare me with a total overdoes of hen night and wedding planning.

I wish to take it a little bit easy with the planning. We have a trip to the US to focus on first. With literally the lowest budget on earth. Scary.

Anyway, better go.
Kit x x x

Report from Kit

2010-08-31T11:08:00.001Z

Been to Sweden to meet little bro’s new born son. So proud.. proud fathers eyes filled up with love when the little one fell asleep in his lap. And the sons adoring eyes when he heard his mother’s voice.. awww...
Then a quick detour to Malmoe where I was Coach Kit for one day only, with the Crime City Rollers, and o-m-g what a feeling it was! Had a great time!
Stayed the night at StepBro & sister in law, and was taken out for le tour around the block by E 5 years old the day after. Then we went to see her big sis play football and W-I-N! Oh yes.

Took the train over to wonderful Copenhagen on Saturday afternoon, checked in to Hotel Fox, went for a glass of wine and more reading of the book mom lent me, whilst waiting for the D dude to land.
We had a date outside Tivoli, went in the moment he stepped out of the train station, and had a fabulous time! When going up the Scenic Railway, just before the big dive, I was asked to marry him and OF COURSE i said yes! What a ride hey!?

Went to a few bars after that then back to the hotel as fiancee and fiance. Exciting. Am I to plan a wedding now?
Oh dear. That’s big.

Week 2

2010-08-13T06:37:00.002Z

Day.... 10. Its Friday, Friday the THIRTEEENTH!!! wooohooo! a day with an edge.

Managed to get one of those Kit bugs, when your whole earnosethroath system is completely blocked and you feel like shit. Awful. On Day 7. Great. So have been a rather snotty new girl for the last 4 days, feel a bit better today but still tired and red nosed.

In a way, and I said this to my bosses, it might be a good thing as I'm not as loud as normally , which means I haven't shocked my new colleagues with any loud mouthed or odd behaviour. Yet.

But all in all. Its good. Lots of variation, lots of fun clients and a really nice team.

Kit x

Day 1

2010-08-02T21:12:00.002Z

at new agency, and I suffered a little with the omg I am not adding ANY value at all right now syndrome, but I guess that's normal, on day 1.

Got a few meetings pencilled in tomorrow. Will make this a good one.

Kit x

semester dag No.1

2010-07-26T21:05:00.003Z

Hej. idag har jag semester. Mums. One week off before I start new job and become new girl.
Last day was nice, most people I care about came down to the pub, some didn't and you know what? Fuck 'em.

Been to the bank, got rid of all the small change , (£20 horray!!) but at Tecos, not the bank because they don't have a coin counting machine? Was asked to sort them and put them in little money bags? How very old school? Contined my action day and got the computer rebooted and reset, internet connection fixed, by chasing SKY (the bastards), then a trip to TK Max , where I found 3 dresses and a pair of suede cowboy boots that I LOVE. One dress is going back to Start, might cycle back tomorrow and swap it for something else... Which I can do bacause I am on holiday!!

And breathe, Kit x

Farwell...

2010-07-23T12:47:00.004Z

old agency, hello - soon - to new job.

Been working on the ultimate Spotify playlist for my soon to be ex-colleagues , its good. Oh its so good I'm almost a little bit jealous!
It has got everything; Atalanta Rhythms, Average white band, Thin lizzy, vanessa paradis, duran duran, the XX, serge gainsbourg, Sia, David Bowie, florence.. everything you can ask for.

that's my present to old agency. 3 and a bit of hard work, body fluids (as in sweat and tears) and the best Spotify playlist ever. Not bad if you ask me.

Kit x

Serious bro looking for serious bro

2010-07-21T16:58:00.002Z

Made me laugh; Serious bro on craiglist

What is he on about?

2 days left here at work. Feels odd. Just clearing out and making sure things are OK before I leave.

Kit x

Sista veckan pa Byrå von Tråk

2010-07-20T08:35:00.004Z

Sitter och googlar, låtsas jobba, och sen jobbar jag som 17 igen , för att sen återgå till min jakt pa den perfekta rullskridskon. Ska man ha Riedells eller Vanillas? vad ska man ha for plattor? Jag kan inget om plattor? Vem kan? Bitch. jag frågar min Bitch. Hjul då? Maste man veta vad man ska ha för hjul nu? Det kan jag val bestämma när jag är där, i US of A, in San Francisco.

Men först ska det avslutas jobb, gå på Sepultura & River Freshney gig, host leaving drinks, Gå på High Voltage festival och sen.. en veckas ledighet innan jag är new girl på new agency on a new mission.

Looking forward till allt.

Kit x

Kit goes fit

2010-07-13T08:48:00.002Z

There's a Swedish Roller girl in New York, Swede Hurt, she is such an awesome skater. She jams, blocks and is on team legit, that team of all super flat track super stars that does banked track too, she skates for Gotham City Rollergirls, think its her day job? Whatever, I'm just impressed and a little bit proud over the fact that we are facebook friends.

She's got a blog, just had a read and the girl does 120 situps!

I can do 40, with a few breaks in between.

Better get my skates on hey?

Top 100 IN THE WORLD?

2010-07-09T14:27:00.001Z

That’s where my new agency is. In the TOP 100- IN THE WORLD? Crazy. What the fuck am I going to do there? HA I hear you say, come on Kit, you can do better. Don’t come here fishing for compliments.
No, I won’t. I’m not.
I’m delighted I got this opportunity, it’s going to amazing. I’m going to work with the best people in the business and learn so much my eye bulbs will pop. Probably.

The dark hole I visited every so often before, has gone, It pops up every now and then, but things are better, changing and I’m feeling more confident. It is me, putting myself down, doubting self. Not seeing the full picture and feel sorry for myself, for no apparent reason. Will go see someone, do a tell all session. Think lots of damage was done when I lost my dad. But never spoke about it. Cried on my own, didn’t share with anyone. None was there to listen. Sad but true.
Now , that’s how it was. People have gone through worse things than not being comforted when needed. Some loses their whole families, limbs and are stuck in a war zone. I’m nowhere near to that situation so I should , sometimes, pull my socks up.

There. They’re up.

Laters, crawling pubs with Pepe and Big Bird tonight. That’s not such a bad thing.

Yours Truly
Kit x

Bill Bill Bill...

2010-07-08T08:31:00.001Z

Ps. i smoked last night and i feel really bad about it. Sorry.

Nice by the seaside?

2010-07-06T17:10:00.002Z

not always.
Swansea has some issues

So so sad.

2K vs. 10 Millisar

2010-07-05T09:49:00.005Z

Ibland blir jag liten byfåne och undrar vad jag gör här, I staden med mer människor än I hela mitt land? Det så många, och alla ar så tuffa. Street wise.

Som på fritids och det bara var folk från 9an där. Och ingen spelar pingis och dricker läsk, alla står ute I rökis och tuffar sig.

vänt.. vänt...

2010-07-02T10:19:00.003Z

först är det ett helt javla bajs år utav jobb intervjuver som leder absolut ingentstans, sen kommer det ketchup över hela Kit och till slut hittar man rätt och det blir nästan lite love mellan byrån och mig och allt känns toppen, sen ska man sitta här och V-ä-N-T-A i dagar för att få något 'in writing' så att man kan finalemente & äntligen knacka på den där jävla dörren och stiga in och titta personal dirren djupt i ögonen och säga 'har du tid?' och utan att vänta så sätter man sig ner och släpper inte blicken en enda gång och sen börjar man prata. Och får äNTLIGEN säga de där orden som legat och skavt på tungan så länge så länge.

Men inte ännu, nehej, inte ännu visst. Först ska det skickas papper och kontrakt och jag är bara sa himla OTåLIGT GLAD.

Förstar ni? Jag har hittat ett nytt jobb!

Kom igen nu, kontraktet kom till Kit sa gå vi, let's lämna vi det har skitstället.

another day another bump

2010-06-28T21:10:00.000Z

it's hard this, relationship shit. No, not shit. but its hard. Hard to get it working, once you hit a bump. It can be the tiniest bump too.

Liten tuva valter ofta.. Argh, I don't want liten tuva som valter, jag vill ha karlek och fint och livet och harligheten amen, hela tiden!

Kom igen nu killen, nu battrar vi oss. Jag vill.

England: Stand still

2010-06-23T14:11:00.002Z

England vs Slovenia is ON. means England as a whole is OFF.
Lots of people are in the board room or the pub , watching a game that we all know will be OK but not mind blowing. Maybe we'll win. Maybe not.
I say we with Sweden I have decided to support England. I would have done anyway. I love England. I'm still here, after 8 years so I better!

Its great here, it really is. A bit slow on the efficiency factor but hey, if efficiency is that important I better move to Germany. Would I? Eerr, no.

Things have been looking up a bit. I have been for two meetings, (Why this ketchup effect? Why can I not just have one thing on the go, at any given time?) Both which went quite well. Well, I say that but if I would be less modest I’d say they went fucking great. However I’m a modest person and I don’t want to jinx anything. I am super cautious , and preserve all energy and hope. If I put my hopes up too much, I will just get MORE disappointed , and that , my friends, I cannot afford. I have my sanity to think of.

Anyway, where were we? Oh, yes, Football. Better go watch some. Or just quietly sip my beer at my desk..

Laters, Kit x

oh dear

2010-06-21T17:11:00.001Z

I seem to have fallen back into a rather dark hole?

I seem to think the world and its inhabitants are awfully unfair and I am some kind of victim?

It seems Kit is no longer able to be her positive self?

Hm. oh dear.