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Sitting at our little kitchen table, have made breakfast for us, the D dude should come back in from the walk with Dave any minute. Started to listen to Jazz pa Svenska by Jan Johansson, then Monica Zetterlunds' 'Att angora en brygga', and now Ulf Lundell and Oppna landskap, and my oh my I wish I could walk out the door and go for a long walk on the beach. I wish we lived in Viken and I could pop in to see my mum and we could take Dave the dog for a long walk on the beach, all the way in to Helsingborg , where we could meet up with Mormor for a nice fika at Fahlmans or Kafferepet where the interior hasn't changed much since 1958.

Kit x

Saturday it is Saturday , Saturday la la laa

Just come in from longest walk with Dave the dog, sipping coffee, avoiding the mess that is our flat. We are moving out in 1 weeks time, and have started packing the bits and bobs that you can live without for a week or two. The flat looks like a hoarders flat, with little tunnels through big piles of boxes and bags. Our combined amount of socks and pants fills up a whole big IKEA bag - some clearing out might be needed. Do I REALLY need to keep the unsexy hospital pants I got when I had that operation on my foot back in June? Rrrreally? Yep. seems like it. :)

Been a few hectic weeks, I'm still stressing about work, money and this goddam Sale of this flat. We still haven't got a confirmed completion date? What is that all about? How do English solicitors work? I don't understand why things can't be agreed confirmed and actioned. Everything takes WEEEEKS. If we don't get a confirmed date and the completion is delayed, we'll end up paying both mortgage and rent. Hm. Not good.

I am a stress ball and so is my dear D dude. Can't wait for this move/sale to be over and we can settle in, in our first home together.

But, for now, its focus on what's need to be focused on. I start a new job on Tuesday, so have a few things to sort out. Packing, reading up on what's going on in the digital world, closing of bank accounts and closing energy and water accounts. Move of council tax, paying in deposit and 1st months' rent, got a bout 18th Feb too, better win that one hey!

And, tonight is Sweet M's bday party, gonna go get ready. But first, coffee and a cigarette. Don't tell anyone I said that.

Kit x

Kit: Now with job

Got a JOB OFFER today! Will start working at Rehab studios in a couple of weeks, and I can't wait! I will be quite nervous I'm sure, but I am so pleased to get into such as super creative and.. open minded place! Can't wait, I want to get my hands dirty and get creative and deliver!!

We've also found a flat, which we'll be moving into the day before I start my new job! haha! Saying that, now it seems the selling of the flat is waiting for the Housing association to deliver some updated documents - about the PARKING. What a bloody nightmare this is. I hate housing associations, and I can't WAIT to get out of here, and rent like a normal person , no mortgage, no stupid documents to chase, and get updated and signed by fan and hans moster hela javla tiden. Fingers crossed we can complete shortly after (or what the hell, before will do!) 19th Feb. and everything goes WELL. That's what we want. Things going WELL.

Thanks in advance.
Kit

the waiting game

We, my D dude and I, are awaiting for confirmation or.. approval from the estate agents of the lovely flat on Clapton Square that we viewed and put down a deposit on Monday just gone.
Me myself I'm waiting for a job offer from branding agency, but more importantly from the webagency with the marvellously fab client list. This is a job that I want, and I think I can do really well. No, I should say that I KNOW I can do it well, because I know I can and I really should be a bit more confident. Should be easy, I know what I can do, and I know I want to do it. a lot of it is in the head. Decide to be happy and visualise to succeed.

I am also waiting for the courier from http://www.musicmagpie.co.uk/ to turn up. 'Sometime between 8AM and 8PM' ... waiting indeed.

Saturday here we come

Me and Dave the dog ar off out to Richmond park to meet up with friends and kids and perhaps some deers. I hope Dave doesn't go all crazy on their ass.

Later folks, have a nice Saturday. Promise.

Kit x

anger face

Anger face is on. Again. Why am I so angry all the time? I feel sorry for my D dude!! I think I know why I am slightly angry. I'm not in control, I don't have that job I really really want, I don't get enough work from my current employer, in fact I get fuck all right now, apart from requests to help out on the admin side of things. Fuck that shit. I don't know where we'll move, when the flat is sold. And I can't get my head around this rental business they run in this country. All the signs going up and down around the houses. WHO puts them up there? And WHY put up a sign telling people its 'Let & Managed by'? Who gives a shit? Its not available to rent, so who cares? Its not like you'd ever ask is it.

This England drives me up the wall sometimes, it really does.

Laters, got research and prep to do. Why I chose to do it now, fuck knows.

Ps. Pardon my anger language. I'm a bit like that right now. Sorry. Desole.

short fuse? Me?

ME? NO I FUCKING DON'T! Haha. haha not really. Its driving me mad this. I am so easily irritated and cross with the world its making me mega tired.

I'm even tired of myself, don't really like hanging out with me.
Been to see therapist again, its nice talking to someone who can help filing things in the right pockets and folders. I was on my way back to being nice to me, to be my own best friend .. and then this, that I kind of expected, loosing my job, that got me right back in the corner where I beat myself up for all things bad, and blame everything that does't go my way, on me. As if there is always something I could have done to make sure things goes well. But that isn't always possible. Sometimes you have to just go with the flow. Get up, brush of the dust and keep going.

Feel better today, had a great practice last night and met up with dearest friend for brunch today. Looking for flats to rent for the D dude, dog and I, hoping our home is sold soon so I get some money in my bank account and can stop worry so much.

Right, that's today's news. Over and out.
Kit, London